Blue Happy Living

Well I’ve been MIA for about a week and a half. I feel like someone dropped me off in a forrest and drove away without any information or direction. I’m not one for staying down to long but this mess has got me in a tail spin. Here is what has happened. On Friday December the 7th I opened up my computer to blog and my world was turned upside down. When you write a blog and open your life up to the world you never know how that will play out. At this point so far so good except for that occasional weirdo that send a pervert message. You hit delete and move on. On that Friday when I opened up WordPress there it was, staring at me with no warning and no notice. It hit me flat in my face. WordPress had change the entire format of my blog page. Understand it took Heather weeks to teach me to blog on my own. There were at least 10 phone calls a day for months. Finally I got it and blogging came pretty easy. So now what do I do with this change………

I called my daughter she said she would look over it but not until Sunday. Okay no blog on that Friday but for sure on Monday. Little did I realize my daughters family would come down with a stomach flu and be out the entire week. There I was looking into the face of a computer problem and no guru to call. I didn’t want to bother her she was nursing her family and down herself. I want you to know that every night I would sit in front of my computer and stress over the cute projects I was doing for the holiday’s and no way to share them. So tonight I’m just jumping in and taking this computer by the horns. I have no idea if this will post. I have no idea where in the heck spell check is, so please no message pointing out spelling. We all know that isn’t my strong point.

So tonight I climbed a mountain so to speak. Fear is an understatement I feel towards computers. Facing fear is something we all have to do ever so often in our lives. What I’ve learned from fear is the strength that comes from it. It makes you grow in ways you couldn’t imagine. Fear is the cora of your stronger soul. Without a doubt it’s what makes you try harder and walk taller. If I would have fallen to fear I wouldn’t be the person I’ve become. The person that lives, breaths and walks her dream every day. I would still be 304lbs. I would still have massive amounts of skin hanging from my body. I would still be sad, hopeless and without a restored life. Facing fear can be the one thing that will lift you out of your deepest darkest place. What do you fear? Have you faced that fear? Maybe today is the day.