Do you ever find yourself just so tired you don’t even have words. How about that long week that everything seem to go off track and send your life into a tail spin. My favorite is that week, day or moment when you have everything planned out but nothing goes right. You spend all your time trying to get back on track. Maybe just maybe things aren’t really off track, just maybe it is all going in the direction that was designed for you. That is where I am today.
Life has been full for Greg and I these day. We really don’t have any down time with both our jobs and this little business called Blue Happy Living. I’m not complaining we both feel very blessed with the success of it all. There are those days we look at each other and say WOW what is next and how in the world can we do more. We are Christians and we know that God is at the helm of our lives. Every success, failure and blessing is covered by his love. We know that we learn for all of it, the good and the bad. We are human and we get so tired sometimes. We laughed as we drove to Waco for the 7th time this month to fill the shelves with new items. Laughing because we are amazed at how well things are going and knowing what is coming down the pipeline for Blue Happy. Greg is pure business minded and he looks at the numbers. If that is all good he is all good with what is happening. He is always looking for ways to improve on the bottom line. Me I’m the artist in all this and I don’t go by numbers. My heart is all over Blue Happy opened up for all to see, love or step on. If I do a piece and it doesn’t sale I take it personal. It’s not the piece it’s the redo and I need to fix it. I’m attached to every piece that leaves my studio. I love each piece as if it’s going into my home, my family’s home or a friend’s home. I want every piece to be loved when it is finished not just by me but by those that purchase it. I know I live in a fantasy world, but my world is happy, full of color and restored life.
To be honest there are days that I look at all that needs to be done and it overwhelms me. Every single thing I pour myself into I question. Why do I do all I do even though I don’t have to. Greg would let me just be a stay at home grandmother. We all know my heart and spirit will never just let me sit. I guess the truth is I look at life as if it’s a race. A race that for years I sat and played the pour me game. Finally waking up I realized that life is what you make it. Life is as full as you choose for it to be. Five years ago at 47 years old and 304lbs. I was choosing to die. I was choosing to let my life fade. I had to let go of the past and move forward without the baggage of what others had done to me. I had to let it go in order to win my race. So what does all this mean? I’m a planner, an organizer and without a doubt a life runner. I think I know what all this means but in reality I really don’t have any idea how this race will end. As for questioning all these blessing, all the work and all the over whelming days today I found this and it all made sense.
“PERHAPS THIS IS THE MOMENT FOR WHICH YOU HAVE BEEN CREATED” Esther 4:14
Thank you to my friend Poppylocks for posting this. These words blessed me and gave me peace.
