After years and years of eating myself to death I’ve gained control of my eating disorder. I’m on point with eating healthy and eating to fuel my body. No more are the days of hitting fast food places and gobbling up fatty fries and burgers. I’ve removed many foods from my diet, some for health reasons and some for weight gain issues. Dairy is a no go for me because it causes my joints to hurt and my stomach doesn’t like it either. I don’t eat bread, rice or pasta, weight gain is quick to follow. Soda’s of any kind are out if you have the sleeve surgery. The fizz and bubble can stretch your tiny tummy and then you start to eat large again.
My daily diet is made up of veggies raw and cooked. Fruit, mostly strawberries, grapes and blue berries. Protein is so important so I eat Chicken, fish or protein shakes several times a day. Snacks are mostly sliced cucumbers, almonds, popcorn or a popsicle (Outshine brand). I only drink water, no tea, coffee or juices. When I say I drink water that might be an understatement. I have a 16 oz cup I carry all the time with ice water. I fill it at least 8 times a day maybe even 10 to 12. Once you start drinking a lot of water every day your body wants and needs it. If I don’t have water handy I might panic a little.
My diet isn’t perfect everyday, all day or all the time. I do have days when I fall back into stress eating. When that happens I try to recognize what is going on so I don’t get out of control for days. It took me years to stop beating myself up when I fall off the wagon. I would punish myself for days felling bad that I was a failure. It’s taken years to come full circle and give myself a break. I know now it’s gonna happen and if I’m honest with myself I can manage through it.
What are my cheat foods. Well that is a short and easy list to call off. Lays BBQ chips, Ruffles any and all flavors, peanut butter again any and all kinds and crackers. I do not purchase these and have them in the house. If I do I will eat them, all of them, every last crumb and lick the bag they came in. I’m serious!
Spaghetti was my favorite meal before my weight loss surgery. I loved pasta and often ate it twice a day. When I say I ate pasta I mean a lot of pasta. My bowl was large and full with tons of butter swirling around all over the pasta. I missed it and found away to have spaghetti with out all the pasta. I use zucchini cut into long pasta shaped noodles. I promise you don’t really notice the difference. I had that for dinner tonight. I have found that I can find a replacement for most any the foods I gave up. They are just healthier the way I eat them now.
I love the way I eat now. It fills me up and makes me happy knowing I’m satisfied but eating healthy. For years I would start my day saying to myself you are going to eat good today, I always failed. Day in and day out, up and down the same road everyday. I’m finally at peace with food and the power it had and can have over me. I’m just better equipped to handle it now. I’m in a better Blue Happy place with food.
