Okay I’m so over this down time and now it’s been extended. The picture with the title shows my extreme mood at the doctors. I woke up this morning and knew that my stitches didn’t hold. I called Dr. A and went in to see how bad it was. Well it wasn’t good. My skin is having trouble holding the stitches. I have very sensitive skin and it keeps trying to spit out the stitches and not hold them. Round three stronger type of stitches these will scar but the up side is they will hold.
I let things get to me today and didn’t grab up my happy. Before I knew it I had let my mood get out of control. I have a run away brain and once I start down a path of moodiness it’s over for the day. I really need to work on that flaw of mine. I pouted like a school girl when I was at the doctors. They have never seen that side of me so I think they were a little shocked. I just miss the gym so much. Working out is more than just being at the gym. For me it fills that empty place where my food addiction was. It gives me energy and I sleep better. Most call it an addiction and I say okay. Dr. A said 2 to 3 more weeks out of the gym. I can’t travel so I anniversary trip will be put on hold for now. If the incision were straight the opening would be about 3 inches long. That might not seem to bad but it’s not straight. It curves into a very sensitive spot in the center of my way lower back, if you get my drift. I’m in a bit of pain because the meds to numb it have worn off. I still will not take the pain meds, dumb I guess.
On top of that because I was tired and let this get to me my day got worse. A student and her mom were bringing me lunch and I had to reschedule that to next week. I also decided it was a great time to think about everything in my life I don’t like. Yep it’s a big old pity party over here at my house. I just need to stop this day, say my prayers and count my blessing. I guess I need to ask for a bit of forgiveness for wasting my day as well. That’s the great thing if your blessed you get another day to start over and boy do I need a start over. So I’m going to bed and get some much-needed rest. I’m gonna settle my heart and heal myself. Tomorrow’s blog is a good project I did a few weeks ago and kinda forgot about it. I’ll share it with you in a much better mood. Good Night!!
