Blue Happy Living

Well today is the day I finish and start the very last leg of my journey. Today is my last surgery for skin removal.  Dr A will finish my body lift to my back area.  This will remove the skin that causes issues when I run.  When this blog post I will already be under and on my way.  I said today is the day I finish and start the last leg of my journey.  I finish today with the last surgery also today I start down the mountain I have climb for almost 5 years.  When I started this journey I made a to do list.  It was long to say the least and a few unexpected to do’s were added along the way.  There are 2 items left on the list and I will announce those in October sometime around the 26th.  That is the 5 year anniversary of me starting my race I so lovingly call “restored life journey”.

Everyone keeps asking me are you nervous about the surgery.  No I’m not at all I have this calmness about it.  It’s been like putting together a puzzle and this is the last piece to put into place.  I’m looking forward to coming home and recovering.  I’ve worked hard for this and from the start I said I would finish it to the end no matter what.  I have taken so much from people over all the surgeries .  Some have been loving and supportive but some have had a nasty bite with words that cut deep.  It took me a while to grow thick skin and take the negative na sayers. I just try to remember they haven’t walked in my shoes and there is no way they could possible understand.

My journey to restore my life started almost 5 years ago but my journey of destruction started over 50 years ago.  I built thoughts and opinions of myself through the words and actions of others.  I’ve made the decisions to share that part of the journey.  It will be painful and hard but necessary for me to finish what I have set out to do.  I didn’t make this decision lightly nor is it going to cause harm to others. I will walk this part of my journey carefully.  Once in my life I was torn down by others I will not be that person to tear others down.  I will show respect in telling my store.  When ask why I didn’t want to name names I said “It’s not necessary they will know who they are and that is all that matters to me”.  There are so many people out there hurting because of harm caused by others.  I hope by sharing my story it will in turn help them heal as well.

So today or when ever you read this blog say a little prayer for me, my family, my doctors and my loved ones.  I know there is much greatness to come.  Life is so much different for me now.  I don’t have the burdens I use to have.  I love my life it is so blessed and full with God’s many treasures here on earth.  I truly have found my Blue Happiness.