Oh my goodness I can’t believe it’s Wednesday. Not sure where last Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday went. You get the picture I’ve been a little out of it. I did write that blog on Monday. I don’t remember it but I wrote it. It was approved for posting by Greg. Well the last and final major skin surgery has been done. There is no hanging skin on my body. The only reminders of what life was like are the scares. With treatment those will fade over time to almost nothing. I will always know they are there and I’m glad. I never want to forget any of this, the weight, the pain, the surgeries or my past. I want it to be a part of me that I look back on and smile. What a weird thing to say but it’s true. I never want to forget where I came from. The smile will be because I won, none of what happened, none of what was said to me, none of the names people called me won. I won, it’s that simple.
The morning after surgery on my way home from my doctor check.
One of the greatest things about my faith in God is forgiveness. He gave it to me and I’m allowed and commanded to give it to others. That is what I’ve done and that is how I won. I forgave every person that did things, said things and called me things. Now let’s get something straight I’m not stupid. I forgave them but I’m not stupid enough to let them do it to me again. I choose to keep my distance. As for my surgery it went really well. It was on Friday morning and by Sunday morning I stopped all pain meds and Valium. I’m on an inflammation drug kinda like a Advil with big muscles. As soon as the swelling goes down I’m off that. I like my head to be clear.
There was 2 parts to the surgery. I had a little bit of revision work done. When you have lots of skin that is stretched out of whack it’s hard for the doc to know just how much to take. This was the case to my arms and inter leg area. So Dr. A had to remove a bit more skin and make things more equal. I’m over the moon pleased how this came out. The pictures look more painful than they really are. I didn’t want another surgery so I opted to do it all this time.
This incision goes from under my breast right to left across my back.
Now the big part of the 4 hour plus surgery, my backside. Better know as a postural body lift, not sure I have that exactly right but you get the picture. Big name for I had lots of back fat and hanging skin that was so uncomfortable daily. It hurt when I walked, run, worked out or really let me be honest it just hurt like hell. I felt like I was leaning backwards from the weight of this extra skin. I can already feel the difference in my back pain. Thank you Jesus for my Doctor. I have an incision that starts on my left side just in front of my hip bone curves around my butt cheek down to the top of my butt crack. It then continues to outline my right butt check and ends just in front of my right hip bone. I have one other incision on my back it starts just under my left breast follows the natural line of my bra strap line all the way around to just under my right breast. I don’t really feel either of those at the moment the nerve are pretty numb. I’m bruised cause I do that really well. It can be scary to look at and at times shocking.
I’ve had to find odd ways to-do things because bending forward is a no-no for the next 5 weeks. It’s those little things you don’t think about like feeding your dogs, putting on your underwear or unloading the dishwasher. Greg had to go on a business trip and although there is a flood of people helping we didn’t prepare for the hungry Cooper. When he wants to eat the entire house knows. Until he is feed No One and I mean NO ONE will rest. So I stared at the small scoop in the bottom of the food bucket and came up with a plan. Don’t laugh it works.
Added note someone I care about deeply is upset with me over all my surgeries. I’m doing this to be the best me I can be. I’ll be back at it sooner than you know it. Please just love me through this.
So there you have it that’s where I’m at today. It’s been a pretty good day so far and blogging has felt really good. Although I loved blogging today it did make me tired so I’m gonna say by for this evening and I’ll blog again on Thursday.
Have a Blue Happy evening!
