I wish that there was another way to fix this problem other than shutting it all down. I mean I’m not a person that gives up on things, takes naps or even cuts back on my schedule. This time I have to take care of this issue and make sure I’m back up right stronger. I run 90 miles an hour non stop without slowing down for weeks and months at a time. I really don’t have a day that I just sit and take in free time without a plan of action. I wish that I had a personality that would allow me to do that. Friends and family are always telling me that I need to take a day off and slow down. I laugh and move on hoping to get in one more project before the day is over.
A few weeks ago I notice that my sleep patterns were changing. I would go to bed early and wake up really tired. The eyes tell the story of my life and they tell when I don’t feel good or something is going wrong. The whites of my eyes were starting to gray and look dark. I’ve been dragging way before my day comes to an end and my gym schedule is beating me up. My muscles are cramping when they shouldn’t be and the soreness is lasting longer. All signs my body is run down. I did the worse thing I could have done and that is ignore the issue hoping they would just go away. Well they didn’t and yesterday it all came to a head and it shut me down. By today, Tuesday I barely made it to the gym, art club and home. I totally crashed this afternoon I laid down and struggled with letting go so I could rest. All that I could think about was all the projects I needed to do, all the things for school that needed to be prepared and what about dinner. Then it finally happened I feel asleep and rested, well until Greg decided to play with our ring.com door bell. Then I woke up, but feeling a bit better. Only proof that I need to rest my body more and shut down a few things for a few days. Hard for me to admit.
Giving into what your body is telling you is hard sometimes. Our brains and bodies don’t always have the same path in mind and that is when a storm brews inside of us. Your body has its own language and pretty much can cause your brain to fight with it. This is what happens to me when I get over whelmed with all my ideas, plans and projects. I have a hard time taking time for myself and restoring my head and heart. A friend of mine ask me to find her an old saw to write a quote on. She had heard a story about 2 men who worked in a saw mill. One man worked so hard all day never stopping to eat, drink or tend to his tools. The other man would take breaks for water, food, rest and tend to his tools. At the end of the day the second man had a larger pile of wood than the other man that worked non-stop all day. Why because his blades on his saws became dull and it was harder to cut the wood but the other man tended to his tows, body and mind so his saws and body cut more wood. What a lesson to learn “take the time to sharpen you body, mind and tools”.
I’m tired but I will be blogging about many things over the next few days. I’m going to take the time to rest my body and mind. I’m sorry I had no blog ready for you yesterday. Honestly the truth is I’m so tired but I’m taking care of it so I’m back at it sooner than later. Have a beautiful Blue Happy evening. I’ll blog at you tomorrow. 👌🏼
