Everyday we all have things to do and places to go. We jump out of bed and rush to start our day without much thought to those around us. I’m so guilty of rushing out of the house without a signal word to Greg. I start my day so much earlier than he does so most of the time he isn’t even up when I start out the back door. When I come home from the gym he is already in his office with the door shut, conference calls in progress. I dress, prepare my lunch bag, feed my puppies and then I’m off for a long day at school. When I get home he is still working I dress for the gym and I’m out again. It’s always at least 6:30 before we are done with our day. Shortly after around 8:00 we go to bed. It’s not much time to share.
That is our life we run in and out of the house without a thought and expect the other one to be there when we do finally meet up at home in the evening. I was given a big jolt this pass month with the death of a student. It gave me a view into a place I didn’t want to see. What this did was to make me realize that I need to slow it down and make sure that those I love know it. Greg needs to hear me say “good-by” in the morning and “hello” when I get home. Even if those moments are brief he still needs to hear me take the time to acknowledge him.
Valentines day was busy and I was gone all day. I really just wanted to come home, eat whatever and go to bed by 8. I could tell when I came home that Greg wanted to celebrate the day and treat me to dinner and a gift. I made myself get up put on something cute and roll with it. I was glad I did we had such a great time. Laughing, telling stories of our past and talking about the future was the order of the night. We had such a great night. In those times I’m so glad that I allow myself to enjoy him with all his funny wit. He really is the man of my dreams always has been always will be.
Love is a funny thing. We take out the hardest parts of life of those we love the most. We are kind in public and pain ridden in private. Funny how those we try to be nicest to are the ones that will take us down as quick as they can. Our family are the ones we are the hardest on and they are the ones that are there for us no matter what.
Valentines day for me is more than flowers, more than candy and more than a card. Valentines day is everyday that we have been married. Over the past 30 years we have been richer and poorer, had sickness and health and all those other words you say on that special day. I do know this, I wouldn’t trade any of those days the good or the bad. I look forward to celebrating Valentines day every day until I’m called home. I love you Greg McCormick with all of my healthy Blue Happy heart.
