Well I went to see Dr. A on Tuesday afternoon. Not the answers I wanted to hear but I’m progressing well and he is pleased. I was hoping for a return to the gym today but no. It’s only been 4 weeks from the surgery date and that is to soon he said. I’m disappointed but willing to give myself time to heal completely before returning. Hoping my next visit gives me a return date. I can see a big difference in the size of my legs. More than size the pain of hauling around all the extra skin is gone and that makes it all worth it.
I had someone say to me why are you so egar to return to the gym? If I were you I would enjoy the time away from the grind you put yourself through. Let me make one thing clear my gym time isn’t a grind. I don’t put myself through anything that is bad or to be dreaded. Going to the gym gives me so much more than it takes away. Sense the surgery and stopping my workout my sleep patterns have been disrupted, I have no outlet for stress and I pretty sure the fog in my brain is due to not working out. It’s hard to explain but when you first start working out you think this is way to hard to get up early, to spend more than 15 minutes doing any class or routine but then it happens. You body starts to alien with your head and the benefits start to show. You begin to see, feel and need the results of working out. Yes some might call that an addiction and I’m okay with that. I’m pretty sure I replaced eating with working out. My posture is affected from the lack of gym time as well and I do not like the feel of soft muscle tissue. Getting back to what I love to do is important but I know in time healing first is best.
I’ve had a few questions come in as to why some area’s of my incision came open. I put that question to my doctor and the answer, just another reason I needed to loose weight. When you are over weight like I was your skin stretches and makes it thin. Add my age to that and your skin gets really thin so when you do surgery it can cause your incisions to open in stressed areas. Not a pretty picture but it is my truth and I have to live with what I did to my body. I can’t cry over it I just have to improve it the best I can and move on.
With all that I’m still pleased how my legs and arms are progressing. I’m looking forward to getting back to normal life and working out. I can’t believe that just 4 short years ago where I was and where I am today. Certainly life wasn’t so Blue Happy back then but boy it’s way Blue Happy today!
