Blue Happy Living

I started my day at the gym as always and short of 2 very brief moments at home I’ve been gone all day. I came home once to get dressed for the day and then once more to grab and run with a sports bra. Almost didn’t make it back to the gym for the body pump class at 4:30. I did make it late, but better late than never I always say.

I spent most of my day stewing over the rude thoughts and expressions of a few. I’ve been hearing a few remarks lately about others opinions to my plastic surgery. Hmmmmm I guess its normal to analyze someone else life and the actions they take with their life. So I’m gonna clear up a few things that I’ve been hearing and stewing over for weeks now.

First let me say I went on this journey for no one else but me. I didn’t do all this so I could wear a 2 piece bathing suit and I certainly didn’t do this so that I could become a party girl. Trust me party girl left this girl years before. Yes I’ve had plastic surgery. I had a tummy tuck and a breast reduction including a lift. I have plans and scheduled surgery to have my arms done and my thighs done. Big surprise in the spring I’m having skin removed from my lower back and lifting the back of my thighs. I’m gonna have scares but I don’t care. These scares are marks for a very long journey and I’m gonna wear them with pride. No sham here people, I love when I look at the scares they remind me I can do anything without limits. For years I suffered and hated what I saw. My body was aging and fast, my health was going down hill and I was starting to feel older than I was. None of the decisions I’ve made have been made lightly. I have a great medical team from my bariatric doctor to my plastic surgeon. Both have walked with me to make the right decisions. I didn’t pick them out of the air, I did my research homework.  I trust both of them with my life. I can’t go without saying not only do I have good doctors my gym gals are the best.  So much support and love I couldn’t have finished this run without them. They all inspirer me daily and motivate me. 

I see people every day buy cars that cost $30,000 plus, clothing and purses that cost outrageous amounts of money along with trips, home decor and so on. I don’t have a grand wardrobe, no fancy vacations and my truck has purpose for Blue Happy. My home is decorated via revamped trash make overs and finally the only jewelry I own of value is my wedding ring, which is priceless by the way. My point is I’m choosing to spend valuable money and time on me.  I want to live a very long time.  I wasted so much of my life sitting around thinking what if and I’m not doing that any more.

It’s very sad when I hear people make remarks about my how much I work out and then follow it by saying it’s over kill.  Maybe ,but I will say this for me it is my way of life.  Some people party, scrap-book, dancing or what ever.  Judging only makes you look like you are jealous and mean.  Bottom line is there is NO substitute for eating healthy and exercise.That leads to another remark I hear often and that is the food limits I put on myself.  Okay I get it but here is my answer to that I feel better than I have ever felt before so how can I justify eating those foods again.

So here we are on Tuesday night my blog is just now getting out because I didn’t want to hurt anyones feels.  I’m sorry if I have offended any of you talking about my journey.  I only share to encourage you.  In the end because of this journey, Bariatric surgery, plastic surgery and my sweet devoted gym gals my life is forever changed.  I made it past 50 years old without having a stroke or heart attack like that rude mean doctor told me when I was 47.  If he wouldn’t have been mean and rude I would have never started down this healthy path.  By the way if I wouldn’t have started all of this Blue Happy Living would have never been born.  I would have never had the brave guts to jump out there and just do it.  The old LaTonya would have just put it aside and given up before she even got started.

Don’t try to guess who it is or even ask me.  I’ll just say it is those that don’t know me well and sadly struggle with their own demons in life.  Tomorrow is a new day and this blog will serve as a reminder to be kind to each other because you have no idea the path they walk.   I love you all and I forgive those that judge me. Life is good and Blue Happy.