Have you ever even once in your life not gone to a party or celebration because you didn’t want people to see you? I’ve done that so many times in my life. I would miss out on life and all it had to offer because I didn’t wanna go out and be seen. I would feel fat, ugly and just to full of pain to wanna celebrate. I would use all kinds of excuses not to be around people. Then I would feel sorry for myself and cry or get angry. It was a vicious circle I ran around for years.
It took me a long time to jump out of the rut and find a new path. Now that I’m out of that so-called rut I try really hard to notice others and their struggles. You never know just what a kind word can do for someone. It could make the difference in the way they spend their day or the way they sleep at night. I also started to notice how blessed I was and soon realized what I thought was life problems really wasn’t. I noticed that there are so many people out there suffering so much more than I am. I complained that I didn’t like going to the grocery store, but others didn’t have the money to go. I would complain about cleaning my house, when others didn’t have a home. I had many complaints while others had nothing and I was blessed beyond most. Sometimes we have to look at others problems to see how blessed we really are.
Last night was a land mark night. It may make for a restless night just thinking about it. I’ve blogged a few times about my bestie Karen and her battle with Cancer. It’s almost been a year since the diagnosis and a tough round of several different types of treatments. She was a trooper all the way through . One of the last things to tackle is the head wrap that covers her bald head. I knew that her hair was coming in because she shared that with me by removing her wrap. She wouldn’t go out into public yet only shared it with close friends and family.
One of our dearest and oldest friend was in town for a brief visit. We all decided to meet for dinner around 6:30. It was touching as I walked into the restaurant. I could see as I walked towards the table she was wrap less. She had texted me and told me I guess I just never thought she would do that so soon. Look at her so beautiful , so happy and a smile from ear to ear.It’s hard to blog my eyes are filling up with tears and I’m choking up. Karen is so brave and loving. She was more worried about how we all would feel then how she would feel. Still facing reconstructive surgery and a few more treatments she is out living life, not giving up just more aware of her body. Any problem I have seems so very small in comparison.
It’s simple, Karen walked tall and dug really deep to see the other side. She walked on the edge and although it’s not completely over she can appreciate life more than most. I learned so much from Karen and I plan on learning so much more. The picture speaks for its self, she is full of life. If we take a moment to be kind, loving and understanding we will receive many blessing from that. Karen being spared is my blessing, because we have so much more trouble to get ourselves into. Enjoy those you love, count your blessings and open your eyes to what is in front of you or you’ll miss it. It’s the weekend so make it Blue Happy and full of memories.
