So many of us fight a battle every day of our lives. Drug addictions, family drama, illness, obesity and the list goes on and on. What drives us to keep going and not give up? Do we stop and take the time to see our blessings big or small? Why do we think that this battle is the end of the road? There are just as many questions as there are issues.
Everyday I fight many battles with my compulsive issues and my weight loss journey. I’m pretty sure there are small battles I’m fighting but I just don’t see them because I’m so focused on my 2 biggest ones. Sometimes I get in a rut and think all my problems are so big when really they are nothing compared to others. I see or hear somethings someone else is going through and I think wow you are so lucky LaTonya. It only takes a day before I’m back at it worrying myself over things that are out of my control. It’s a crazy world this head of mine. I think of the oddest things to worry about. I wish we could all just stop the worry ride and get off, wouldn’t that be so fantastic. Life still goes on and not worrying is like saying the sky will no longer be blue from time to time. I guess we have to be more in control of our thoughts and dreams.
When this weekend started we had no plans, but the weekend quickly became busy and full. I got to spend the evening with my bestie and her hubby. She fights her battle everyday and look at that smile. As if nothing has happened out on the town living life. That’s when I know my problems are small in comparison. No matter the size we all have problems and battles to fight all with importance. I’ve got a really big decision to make and it has to made by today. I’ve beat myself up over this afraid to let others down. I know the right thing to do, the right answer and why it’s right but it still hurts to just make the decision. My head says one thing my heart says another. Sometimes I wish I could be 2 people during the day and then rest my heart as one at night. I would have the other LaTonya do all the hard things and the real LaTonya do all the fun things. Hmmmmmmm I think that’s called split personality. Whatever it would just be easier than doing it all. Never the less I’m moving forward with my decision and praying for the best and understanding of all those involved. Before you all freak out I’m not getting a divorce or leaving Wylie Prep. The Blue Happy blog moves forward as always. It really is an issue that I’ve just needed to take care of so that I can move forward.
So it’s Monday and I think I’m gonna start my day with good thoughts, follow my list of things-to-do and pray a lot today. I know that I’m blessed and I know that I have a life that is amazing I just need to clean up a few things to make it a life without so much worry. I hope that your weekend was fantastic and how blessed you are to get another Monday after all its the best day of the week. So go make it a Blue Happy day with lots of love, smiles and inspiration.
