I’m a person that is affected by what is going on around me. I have to take a step back and give prayer and thought before I speak. I wanted so badly to just blog on Monday as to how I felt about the events in Orlando. So much pain started that night. For many years that pain will live on in the hearts of Mom’s, Dad’s, family and friends. I didn’t hear about it until Sunday like I said on Monday I took the weekend off to enjoy my summer time watching TV and the internet wasn’t part of my time off. When I did hear I just wanted to gather my family and hug and love them. This world……..this world we live in, so sad, so full of hate and anger.
I live in a very special world, the art world. I don’t believe I have ever myself or ever heard any one ask another artist what race, religion or sexual partner they prefer. I’m not saying it doesn’t happen I’m just saying I have never heard it myself. I have taught many students over the years and some have shared with me they are gay. I still loved them with out judgement. Yes I am a Christian but my faith tells me not to judge, to love all and most of all not to harm others because we are all God’s creation. Every student to me no mater their ages, sexual partner, race or religion they are my babies and I love them FOREVER! They could come to me at any time for help and I would do my best to help them. When I heard of the mass murders I went through my head and accounted where each one of my older students were at that time in this world. As far as I knew they were all safe and as I watched Facebook I knew they were safe. I have taught for over 25 years so the list of my students are long so you can understand my worries. I also have a sweet friend that worked at my old gym that lives right there. She posted on Facebook about giving blood so I knew she was safe as well.
Why do people want to hurt others, this is where my heart and the reality of life just don’t meet up. I do have a tender heart and seeing any animal or human in pain hurts my heart so deep. This could have been any where, at any event and close to any of us. Everyday is a gift and I keep saying that time is not a credit card you max out, pay off and use again. It is a debit card and no one knows just when that will run out. There is no way to check your balance of the life you have left. The hard reality is there were I love you’s not said, hugs not given and words left unspoken by those that have passed away and those that are still here to deal with that reality. Taking stock of our life is something that sadly is not often done until something like this happens. I don’t know about you but I’m taking stock and I have some I love you’s to give, lots of hugs to pass out and a few other things to share with my friends and family.
I have been hearing so many remarks about why this happened, who caused this, is it a hate crime or is it a terrorist crime. Bottom line it happened and we do need to know as best we can what and why. Jumping out there and trying to blame before we know all the details only causes more frustration, hate and confusion. I’m going to spend my time praying for the ones left behind so that their hearts have comfort and given peace. Please give your prayers and thoughts to those that are dealing with hurt and anger. If you can give blood even if you don’t live near the Orlando area go donate. Make a donation to the Red Cross, just do any act of kindness in honor of the lost lives and most of all just love your friends and family. God bless you one and all.
