Life Is About Creating Yourself

Truth is something that can sometimes be easy to say but other times can be hard to take. I mean really we all think what is in our own head is the truth but the reality is we make the truth fit the way we feel.

When I was over weight I would look in the mirror and think I’m not that bad just a bit pudgy. Mind you I had a mirror that was from the waste up. I never looked in a full length mirror nor did I dare take in the rear view image. I lied to myself all the time because the real truth wasn’t something I needed or wanted to hear. The day the Dr. told me that I was “obese” it hurt and I was so upset. The reality was it was the truth and nothing more. Facing that truth I had two choices. I could except that I was obese and let the disease of obesity take over my body and slowly kill it or I could fight with every inch of myself.

I wanted to just lay down and sleep, cover my head and let it win. Everyday I had to fight to get up and take one more step towards being healthy. I didn’t want to have surgery, I didn’t want to exercise and I didn’t want to follow a healthy eating plan. I wanted to just keep my life the way it was, I wanted to watch tv and sleep late and I wanted fast food with a double cheese burger, fries and a shake. I soon learned that the need to keep on feeling sorry for myself and keeping life the way it was in misery was the disease talking and not my true heart.

I can cleanly remember the day I woke up and just felt so defeated. I was feeling completely overwhelmed with this thought of what now. It was just days before my surgery and I wanted to back out, no I want this, no I’m canceling it, no………this went on for days. Clearly I had the surgery but I still wanted my food, I wanted to sleep late, I wanted to just be healthy and I wanted to just go to sleep and dream it all away.

This battle with obesity has not been without misery and pain but, I won. I’m a few weeks away from reaching my goal weight, I have met my exercise goals and setting new ones for the future. So many times I almost let this disease win over my body but I refused and dug deep to find my strength. There are many other diseases out there that can cause a person to feel defeated but, you can’t. You have to dig and dig deep to find that enter voice that will tell you to fight and fight hard. There were so many times that I cried, felt sorry for myself and believed the world was against me. I learned to look ahead of the moment I was standing in. I learned to pick a date way down the road and keep my eye on that date. That date was a promise that fighting would get me there.

Any disease, dark moment or less than perfect life can be hard to go through but until you take your last breath fighting is the only way to beat it. Wake up and make one change today that you didn’t do yesterday. Making that change can be hard and feel like a struggle to you. If it’s easy then it isn’t moving you forward. Only the changes that are hard will move you forward. One day down the road things will become easier and that’s when you know your hard work is healing you.

Not all my days are Blue Happy. Some days are pretty dang hard. I try very hard to pick Blue Happy days over dark days, after all it is my choice. Your life and your happiness is in your hands no one else. Life is about creating yourself and making life the way you want it to be. I hope that this blog today helps you work hard to find the happy in your day. If you are a person that is on the Blue Happy side of life then maybe you can use this blog today to share with someone who is not so Blue Happy. My hope for your Wednesday is that you make those changes and start down the road of Blue Happiness.