Well todays project didn’t get done, my head was in it but my body said enough you need rest. Have you ever had so much pain that you just wanted to give up. Pain comes in many forms and seasons of our lives and we all have felt it in some form or another. I have felt the pain of disappointment, death and illness. It never gets easier but if you let it, it will make you stronger.
Pushing through the pain of this long journey of getting healthy sometimes seem endless. I find myself adding more and more to get to that end goal that my body is exhausted by this time in the week. When Monday morning rolls around I’m so full of energy and spunk that I can’t wait for that alarm to go off. By Wednesday my body is aching but the desire to reach that goal is still strong and I move forward. When Thursdays alarm goes off I’m in pain my legs hurt, my soul needs rest that I don’t have time to give it. My desire to get up is weak but I still do it. I do it because my desire to complete this dream and goal has more power than the weakness.
I had no idea when I started this how the challenge of pain and weakness would affect me. I know that I would have some days that I wouldn’t want to get up and do what I needed to do. To be honest I thought there would be more down days than up days. I wasn’t sure I could pull it off I mean let’s be honest I had failed so many times before. I had started and stopped and failed over and over again. What happened surprised me, shocked me and is still puzzling to me today. Some where deep inside of me was a fighter for me. You see I have always fought for myself to get passed many things that I had no control over. I was in control of this weight thing and I just didn’t fight for myself to get out of it. It was easier to just stay and rest within it. Some where a switch was flipped and I found my fight for me. I push through the pain and finish my 5 days a week workout. I continuously read up on what is best for my body through food, cardio and weightlifting. I learn new things every week.
When the pain gets so overwhelming I pray and pray hard. I rest in His strength over me. Today I woke with pain in both legs and down my back, I win because I got up anyway. The gym was hard this Thursday and will be even harder Friday morning but I’m gonna win over the pain and reach my goals. I’m not sure what holds you back or what pain causes your life to slow down but I do know you have to get up anyway. Move forward and push through the pain and don’t let it win. I’ll get to that unfinished project and add it to next weeks blog and life will be just fine. Be Blue Happy in spite of it.
