Blue Happy Living

This is a hard blog to write. Over the past 3 years I’ve been on a “Get Healthy Journey” and it’s been so hard. I’ve had so many ups followed by those roll over you down times. There has been times I just wanted to give up and a few times for a moment I did give up. 

I started out like most going to a gym walking on the treadmill and saying to myself, “just 20 minutes”. Then stepping off that treadmill and going home. I watched the classes going on and thought to myself “do they know how goofy they look and that everyone is watching them? Don’t they care people are watching them?”

I knew several of the ladies taking the class and almost every time they would invite me in to the class. I would say “no I’m good. I don’t dance.” Secretly I wanted to try the class but was so afraid I’d look like an idiot. 

To make a very long story short Nicole got pregnant, had a shower, I met Nancy my neighbor of 2 years at that time, she put me on the spot to come to class, I did, it kicked my butt and now it’s been 3 years. I do it all now from Zumba to body pump and so on and so on. Best thing I have ever done for myself. 

In this 3 years I have made for myself this family of women. I’m not one to open my heart to people. I care for people but I’m very careful to not open my heart. These women have over whelmed me with love, encouragement, support and friendship it was impossible not to open my heart. I love each and everyone of them. Even those I didn’t get to know much more about but that we shared a moment in a hot room having our butts kicked. 

I’m having a hard time typing their names out but these ladies deserve so much credit for saving my life. You see 3 years ago at 47 I was told by my Dr. if you don’t do something you’ll have a heart attack by 50. At 300lbs I looked in the mirror with not much hope. Leann, Amber, Nicole, Nancy, Jennifer, Shelly, Megan, Laura, Lori, Nikki, Mrs. Eddye, Rachel, Carmen, Holly, Teresa each one of these ladies have no idea the impact they have had on my life. I am for ever grateful for their compassion and love. 

Now this is the part that’s hard, as of Tuesday our little gym has closed. As a family we all promised to stick together to join a gym that we can all go to. I so hope that happens and we all stick together. This is very scary for me. I feel like I have been dropped off in a big black hole. Today my Blue Happy is grim, dark, and shaded. I know I’ll be ok because the gym closed and not our friendship but it does seem sad and dark. 

I had a family issue to take care of and I had to miss the last classes that were held. I so wanted to see everyone one more time in that smelly little run down gym. My heart was broken as I watched the class time go by from across town in a hospital room. I knew they had a hard time walking away. 

Life will go on and my Blue Happy will be bright once more, but what have I learned? Well, every moment with friends is just that, a moment. You never get time back, once spent it’s over. Enjoy your time with the people around you. Open your heart because you never know what you will miss if you don’t. Trust that God brought you to this place and time for a reason. But most of all cherish the women God brings to your life and learn from them. 

We all will be joining a local big box gym. It’s really nice and fancy with all kinds of machines and classes. Our little gym was never about the fancy things it was run down, dirty and most of the machines were out dated.  It was about the love that brought a bunch of women together as friends. 

I’ll leave it at that and give you a quote from a great author, “Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.” (Dr. Seuss)

God Bless and go find your Blue Happy!